Wednesday, January 27, 2010


I have been reluctant over the past couple of weeks to post anything substantial.   After all the crap "trying naturally" (with opks, etc etc), the idiopathic IF diagnosis, two IUIs:   To finally get pregnant on an off cycle makes me feel like a bit of a sham in this community.

I remember not being able to visit blogs where the person was a parent, or was expecting, and because of this, I will not make this blog about my pregnancy.  In fact, I'm considering moving to a different blog, with just a link to this one, or even quitting the blog altogether and just becoming a commenter.

Before this Hail Mary pregnancy, I had a few more posts that have been swirling in my head that I wanted to write about the state of my marriage.    I think that in the next couple of weeks, I will try to pound those out, and then let this blog wind down.   But I haven't decided for sure just yet, but it's on the horizon.


  1. I've been wondering. But look, everybody who's ever been in your shoes feels this in one way or another. Seriously. I have a post floating around in my head on this very topic. Kym at I'm a Smart One writes very eloquently on it as well.

    you still have a long road to go, and you have people who enjoy reading your perspective. Change your blog address, maybe. Or just keep putting you out there. Whatever works for you.

  2. I don't think you're a poser. I think you're a lucky lucky woman. But I understand how you must feel. And I will continue following your journey, Nixy!

  3. You are not a sham! You are a wonderful woman that's been blessed with this gift after years of TTC. You are still one of us and you will always be one of us. Please remember that!

  4. Just because you got pregnant off-cycle doesn't mean you don't understand firsthand what IF is like, and THAT's what is important in this community. Sure, there will be some people who are hurting too badly to be able to deal with a pregnancy blog. I have been there, we all have been in that place. And it's perfectly normal! But the whole goal of TTC is to get pregnant, so there shouldn't be shame. TLC yes, but no shame. Let's see an u/s pic!