I have been thinking more and more about coming out of the IF "closet" to my family. While I absolutely DREAD the actual conversation, I am thinking more and more that it would be easier to be around them if they knew the whole truth.
I know that my silence about this is creating problems between myself an my mother. I'm sure that it's also seeping into my other family relationships but I'm so caught up in it that I can't currently figure out how much.
I'd also feel better with my husband telling his sister (which he's been wanting to do for awhile) once my family knows first. yes, I know this is petty... I can't help it. can't. help. it. I'm a terrible person. I just dislike her SO MUCH. But he really wants to tell her and I feel bad keeping him from doing it. Though quite honestly some of the ways she and her sister were acting at Christmas make me wonder if he has already told her. Maybe I'm just paranoid.
I worry, however, that the absolute opposite could happen. What if they then feel the need to ask me how it's going all the time? I think that this would be logical once they know. I also feel like they might then stare at my belly critically and try to figure out when I actually do become pregnant. This would also be natural (I currently do it to my brother's new wife because I know that they are trying).
Maybe I'll give it 6 more months. I have mentally prepared myself that negative results in six months would mean that we move on to making the decision to live child-free or adopt. At that point, we will have exhausted our natural IUI, and (possible) medicated IUI cycles.
It's such a difficult decision! And so much harder because you can't fix it if it turns out to be an awful choice. Once it's out, it's out, and there isn't anything you can do about it.
Erg, I guess I'll keep mulling it over. Has anyone out here told people and then wished that they hadn't?